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| Oh Darcy I'm So very Sorry for the loss of your sweet little Panda. She knew how much you and Brian loved her. It will take time, but you will feel better.  Lisa Frankie and Mattie |
Darcy, I am so sorry for your loss.  Try to think of all of the happy times you spent together, and imagine her no longer sick. Panda is happy and healthy and waiting for her loving mommy at the bridge. |
| Darcy, I am so sorry. How horrible. I'm actually at a loss for words. I could tell how much you cared for her in your posts and I can tell how devastated you must be. I wish I could take some of the pain for you. I'll say a prayer for you and sweet Panda tonight. RIP sweet Panda  |
| I know your heart now has the biggest hole in it, and you can't stop crying. She knows how much she was loved. It's so easy to love them and so so hard to let them go. I'm so sorry. |
| oh. my. gosh. what a hard decision you had to make. and what an unexpected one! I am SO SORRY. I literally felt a physical hurt when I read this post. I can't even imagine what you guys are going through. I think like any huge loss, you get through a min. at a time. Then an hour at a time, and eventually a day at a time. I will be praying for you. I'm so glad you both were able to be with her and strong enough to make the right decision to end her pain. I wish I had the right words - I hope you have people around you to help you through this time. Again, I am so sorry- |
| Oh my God... my heart just sank. I almost couldn't read your post because I didn't want to read ....what I knew was about to be said i'm so sorry Darcy. I'm glad she came into your life and that you guys had the time you did. I can't even say any more. |
| Darcy, I can't believe I'm reading this right! So terribly sorry that dear Panda is gone. She put up the good fight but she was so, so tired. You did right to let her go. There is no easy way to get through this, just take one day at a time. It does get better. It gets easier to look back on the joy and happiness she gave you through her life. Treasure those moments forever. Sending you and Brian hugs from across the country. Love you, kiddo! Nita |
| Oh Darcy, my heart aches for you. You survive by grieving, then remembering. You and Brian were so blessed to have shared your lives with her. And she so blessed to have been loved by you. I am so sorry for your loss. |
| Sending all the love we can muster. So sorry for your loss. |
| Darcy I'm So very Sorry for your loss of Panda . |
| RIP sweet Panda. You were so loved and will be missed by so many of us. to Darcy and Brian. Thank you for sharing your beautiful girl with us. |
| I am so sorry Darcy You did what was best foryour baby girl She is still very near Kathy |
| Darcy and Brian, we are so sorry to hear about Panda. As hard is it is, your last act as a loving pet owner was to let her go, and end her suffering. My heart is breaking for you. Laurie and Oscar |
| Darcy-- I'm sorry just doesn't seem enough to say- My heart just aches for you. Hugs and prayers for you to get through this. She will always be with you, and you gave her your best, just like she gave you. Rest in peace dear girl. |
| Oh Darcy, I'm so sorry for your loss of Panda. Your heartache will get better with time but you will always miss her and have her in your heart. My thoughts are with you and Brian. Cindy |
| Oh NO! I am so sorry your lovely girl is gone! My heart is breaking, I imagine your's is just devastated. She was much loved and pampered and loved you both in return. She took care of you in your need.......so she earned her angel wings big time. You really don't get over it, you just grow some callus around a very broken heart. susan |
| No words can express how sad I am by this news. The tears are flowing and it's a painful decision to have to make. You did what you could for her and she is no longer in discomfort. I'm glad you could be with her and show her all the love you had for her right until the end. |
| My heart stopped for a minute when I read the title...I had so hoped Panda girl would have pulled through. I am so sorry for you and Brian. Panda was such a special little sheepie girl. She was always so patient when dressed in her Halloween Costumes. I am going to miss hearing stories about your sweet girl...she's been on this forum since I joined. Panda is deeply missed. to you and Brian during this very difficult time. Tears, |
| God Bless your darling Panda Darcy and Brian you are in our thoughts, never easy to say goodbye but panda was blessed you were with her as her journey over the rainbow bridge starts. She will always be there as your guardian Angel, they never really leave us at all, always watching over us in our hearts and memeories, a living love forever. Rest peacefully darling angel panda, you will be missed by all. |
| Darcy, I am so sorry for your loss of Panda. I will say a prayer for her, you and Brian. |
| I am so so sorry to read your post. I am glad you were able, strong enough, to send her over the Bridge. I have a candle lit tonight for no reason but now I know why I lit it. Try to remember the good times, I am sorry nothing I say can help, or sounds right.....tears for you...xxxxxx |
| Im soo sorry. |
Darcy and Brian, may your foggy heads and heavy hearts, give away to wonderful memories of your time with Panda.  hugs, peg, mark and howie |
| I'm terribly sorry for your loss, Darcy and Brian. You know in your heart you did everything you possibly could for dear Panda. She was so fortunate to have you. |
violet wrote: My heart stopped for a minute when I read the title...I had so hoped Panda girl would have pulled through. OMG! Me too exactly. I know Panda has been ailing for weeks and you've been sharing your agony watching her decline but I really always believed there would be something that could be done. Obviously not. You've known it all along: what she had was not recoverable. Oh I am so so so saddened by the news and my heart aches for you. I am relieved that sweet Panda's suffering has ended but I wish this hadn't been what it was, to take her too young, too soon. So many others have written comforting things and I realize that I am not and I am sorry for that. I just am in shock and so sad. Your girl was deeply loved her entire life with you and she knew that. Dogs never wish they had more time. Just their people and friends who will miss them always. You have my deepest sympathy. |
| Darcy and Brian..As I write through teared eyes, I am so sorry to hear about sweet Panda. Hold onto the wonderful memories you have and know that you were there for her, to the end. She will always be in your heart and your soul~ And, I really believe there is a Rainbow Bridge...and I know that Panda is playing and running with all of our furbabies that are there~~ waiting,.. Tonight, as I look up to the heavens, I will see the brightest star and know it is Panda, smiling down on all of us... |
| Darcy and Brian As I wipe the tears from my eyes for your loss, I can only imagine your pain and heartache. I wish you the strength and courage you will need at this time of grieving and that each moment will somehow get a little easier. Good bye sweet Panda, we will see you on the other side of the bridge some day. |
| My tears cannot express how deep my sympathy is for you and Brian. You guys fought so hard, and we all kept wanting her to pull through. The world will miss sweet Panda, and all the joy and love you gave to her, and she to you. |
| Just checked to see how Panda was doing and saw the post... Dary and Bill...our prayers go out to you...How does one get over the loss you ask? Not sure if you do but you learn to live around it...Just know you gave Panda every thing wonderful life had to offer her...She needed you to take care of her and put her to rest when she needed to...She knows you did what you needed to do for her, for Panda, to get out of her fear and pain....God Bless...sending you love |
| I am so sorry for you loss, so heartbreaking, I honestly don't know how anyone gets over it, many hugs and prayers. |
| I can't stop crying. I don't know what to do. Brian picked up her bowls. The kitchen is so empty. It's too quiet. I'm holding her baby and smelling it. It smells like nasty panda breath. Right now it's the best smell in the world |
| Those of us who have been in your shoes, know exactly what you are going through. I remember sleeping with Millie's collar cuz it smelled like her and laying on her tuffet.... and I needed that! Do whatever you have to do to comfort yourself. When I lost Millie, there were no websites like this, so ,,,use us to help you cope with your loss...We UNDERSTAND and can give you much love and support! I think anyone who has been a member of this wonderful site for the last couple of years, know you and Brian and Panda ( 233 members responded to your "Panda is sick" thread) and we all love you very much and will be here for you to support you and listen to your sorrow. YOU are not alone, sweet Darcy...we are with you and are praying for you, Brian and Panda. |
| Like so many others here, Panda has been in my thoughts and prayers so much lately and we had all hoped for a better outcome. I am so very sorry for your loss but I am so happy that Panda got sent off to the bridge with such love. |
| oh no we are all thinking and feeling the same right now like she was ours ..............my heart is breaking for you |
| Oh no. I am devastated by the loss of our Panda. Thank you for taking care of her so well, thank you for comforting her and being with her and suffering with her. Thank you for being so compassionate to give up more time with her to ease her from this terrible disease. We love you Darcy and we are grieving with you. |
| I have cried for you and my heart aches for you. I have lost 3 in the past 5 years, 2 in 1 year and it is never easy. The OES always take the biggest pieces of your heart. I hope your hearts can heal soon and that the terrible ache you are feeling will be replaced with the love you feel for your girl. Rest peacefully sweet Panda. |
| Darcy, I am so sorry. I wish the outcome could have been different, we all did. And Lisa is right. They never really leave us. You'll feel her presence, some times even hear her; she'll be looking over you, just like you looked after her till the end when you set her free. I wish I could say you get over it, but you never really do. Some day you'll think of her and smile, but the feeling of loss never really completely goes away. She'll know when you're thinking of her and, when you need her the most, she'll still be there for you. Kristine |
| Darcy I am so terribly sorry for your loss of sweet Panda. I wish I had a better way to comfort you. |
| Darcy I am so sorry for your loss. Hearing so much about Panda over the last couple of years I can tell she was a very loved member of your family. I know your heart is breaking. I just wish I could do something to help you. Know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers as you have been for the last several days. Carley and I send hugs. |
| I am so very sorry for your loss of beautiful Panda. Tears are pouring down my face as I feel your pain. One of the biggest heartbreak in my life was helping both my Sammy girl and Westie Max cross the Bridge. But through the pain I take comfort in that I loved them enough to end their suffering. Your love for Panda and her love for you will never die. My prayers are with you Darcy for healing comfort. |
| I just saw the "In Memory of Panda" at the top of the screen, and I came here to the Rainbow Bridge section, hoping against hope.... I'm so, so sorry. I cannot stop crying as I type this. Words cannot convey the complete and utter sadness I feel for you right now. Panda was such a big part of our online family of giant, goofy shaggie loves. I know we'll all miss hearing about her so much, but that its a fraction of what you must be feeling. I'm so sorry, Darcy; I wish I could say something more, or do something to help. Please know you'll be in our thoughts, and if there's anything we can do, please don't hesitate to ask. With much love; Allison & crew |
| Darcy and Brian, We are so sorry to hear about Panda. Her loving spirit will always be with you and through your posts over the years, with all of us. You are in our thoughts and prayers... |
| Darcy, I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is breaking for you and Brian. As others have stated, you are never completely healed but eventually the ache lessons. Panda leaves you with her love and all the beautiful memories you had together. And she went to the rainbow bridge in peace guided by your love for her. How lucky you both were to have each other. Through my tears I am remembering her joyful disposition. The cute little button on her back end and the fun of her frolicking in the ocean on your vacations. We can only thank you for sharing your special Panda's life with us. We are all heartbroken. Eight is far too young. Take care. We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers. |
| Oh, Darcy... My heart goes out to you... Panda's pure soul is now one with the warmth of light, where we all originated from and get back to... |
| Oh, Darcy, like everyone else has said, words just cannot convey how sad this makes me. I am so, so sorry for your loss of your precious Panda girl. She was very special and I know how much you and Brian will miss her. You are doing what you have to do - grieve. Cry and scream, hang on to her scent on her things, and cry and scream some more. I know it's exhausting, but it really does help pull you out the other side. I pray the pain in your hearts is soon replaced with the wonderful memories you will always cherish of your sweet Panda. |
| Darcy: I don't know what else to say other than we all know how you are feeling. We've all been there more times than we care to remember. The reason you hurt so much is because Panda meant so much to you. Hugs & prayers to you & Brian. |
| Darcy, I'm so sad for you Big giant hugs coming to you from me We know when we have a dog join our family that they will die too soon, that they will never live long enough. And it still is NEVER ever going to be enough. But having the loss come so suddenly and brutally is doubly hard. Panda was your girl and always will be. These painful memories of today and the past weeks will fade and the fun, crazy ones will come back stronger and make you smile. |
| Darcy,Know that we are all feeling your loss. Its hard for me to write this because it brings me too close to when Taylor crossed over. I brought that up because you never really "get over it". With time you will not feel the crushing weight of sorrow you are feeling right now but your loss, like the loss of any loved one will always be there. Right now, just keep breathing and know we are here for you. I am soooo sorry for your loss. |
| This is the worst possible news, and we are so very, very sorry for your loss. I am feeling your pain and writing while sobbing...why do we love these creatures so much when we know they will leave us too soon? Panda is the sun and your pain must be indescribable at this time. |
| I am so sorry. We will all miss our pink-nosed girl. May your wonderful memories bring you comfort. |
| Such shock and heartache. You NEVER get over it. I have no words. I love you darcy. Mark |
| I still can't believe this, Darcy. There's nothing I can even think of to say that would be anywhere near enough to express my shock and sadness for you. I thought for sure she'd pull through and be fine. |
My heart aches for you, Darcy. She was really special. A true little princess. I still remember that one year of Sheepie Fest of the West. All the dogs went up to greet her upon yours and her arrival. She just patiently sat there and let the doggies show their admiration. Even my sissy boy Clayden who was scare of any dogs not significantly smaller than his size was so charmed by her that he had to go up to greet her...and she just sat there to take it like a true lady   |
| Oh my god Darcy, I am so sorry. I always thought she'd bounce back, it just never crossed my mind that she wasn't invincible. I just have no words. I'm so sorry you and Brian are going through this. I wish I could take the heart ache away. Shellie |
| Oh Darcy I am so so sorry for you and Brian and the loss of your wonderful Panda. I know you will both be devastated. Try and remember that she loved you as much as you loved her. One day you will see her again and she will live in your heart and your memories for ever. Sending you lots and lots of love and hugs, Debs, Geoff and Cloud xxx |
| So sorry to hear your sad news. We only get to 'borrow' our sheepies for such a small time but the love we share is timeless. Panda will always hold a special place in your heart. X |
| A piece of my heart broke when I saw your post on facebook this morning. I cried for you and then tried to stay brave... but coming here & seeing the black border broke my heart again... I write this through tears... I can only imagine the pain you are feeling. Please know that Panda is with you all the time. I used to see Ru walking next to me before he was even born, so I KNOW it happens the other way too |
| Oh Darcy, I am so sorry for your loss of Panda. The emptyness almost kills everything else in life when we loose our beloved friend. Giant hugs to you! Take care. |
| Oh Darcy! I'm so sorry. She is your sun and now your guardian angel. Just know she is now at peace and free of pain and suffering. She had a very happy life. You have a wonderful history that you have documented and can revisit here on the forum and it will give you comfort. Please be kind to yourself during this most difficult time and know that you may not be in your right mind for some time and that's completely normal. Don't be hard on yourself. And it's OK if you don't wash her toys and such for a long time. My sympathies to you and Brian. |
| Darcy, I didn't think I would be reading that your baby Panda crossed the bridge. I am sitting her sobbing for you and Brian and the significant loss of Panda. You are in my thoughts any prayers You were all blessed to have eachother and be together when Panda crossed. I hope she is playing with my Gracie, Mandy, Megan, Magic and Li'l Brittches. No hurting, no illness, just play time. As far as a time frame of it not hurting, I don't know. Hang in there. Again, I am sorry for the loss of Panda. Nancy G |
| Oh, Darcy. Panda was such a wonderful companion!! Our hearts are with you at this terrible time Panda is waiting for you at the bridge |
| Darcy, I'm so sorry to hear about Panda. to you and Brian during this tough time. |
| Darcy and Brian I am so sorry to hear that you lost your sweet Panda. I wish I had some magical words to say that would make you feel better. God speed sweet Panda. |
| Darcy so very sorry for your loss With so many tears coming down my face, I so feel your pain...it's been not so long ago I sat clutching our Cassie's special stuffy & blanket. You will see you girl again, and take comfort in knowing she is without pain and now eating & playing with so many others. You were such a good sheepie mama... Thank you for sharing sweet Panda with us I know you loved her so... God never leaves these shaggy ones on this earth long enough. Hugs~ Diane |
| Darcy, I'm so sorry to hear about Panda! While I was at working today I was thinking about her and couldn't wait to get home and check! I didn't want to read what I saw on f/book and here... I'm crying writing this too. Panda will always be a Special Girl to us, I know how yr heart is breaking. I wish I could give you a ((Hug)) but you know I am thinking about you from across the pond. Panda was a very Special Lady and she had a very Special Momma who loved her and gave her the best.... Love you Honey!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
| Darcy, While the are no words to express your loss and devestation nor any to comfort you at the moment please know that we all feel your pains and also feel the loss of Panda ourselves. Through this forum we all become a close family and the loss of any member deeply affects each of us. We are all here for you and offer whatever help and comfort we may be when the time is right for you to reach out and ask of it. Grieve a while, cuss and rail against how unfair life and death is and then let the many happy memories of Pandas life, so well spent and so important and such a part of who you have become, begin to replace the sadness, devestation and tears. There will come a time when those memories will bring you joy, satisfaction and an inner peace. And when that happens you will be able to again feel Panda's spirit walking next to you. Know that Panda loves you and thanks you for her release. It is the hardest thing you ever did but it is also the kindest and most loving act that you could have done for her at this time. As ever Panda's needs came first. Your God will bless you for that many times over. Best Love Wishes and Prayers, Carl and Michele. |
| I am so sorry to hear of your loss...... |
| I am so sorry to hear of your loss..... |
| I am so sorry for you lost, I know how hard is to have to take this kind of desicion, but I know in my heart that the pain that we feel know will pass and the good memories and time with your Panda will help. Think about the good moments the happy times and think about her running and playing at the rainbow bridge Again am so sorry |
| Still thinking about you ...love what Ron did at the top. |
| Darcy, I am so saddened by your loss. Just keep all pictures and memories alive and it will help you get through all of this deep saddness. It will take time. You take care of yourself and your husband. Love, Mary |
| Darcy- So very very sorry to hear of the loss of your dear Panda. Special thoughts for you and Brian. |
| Darcy, I'm so so sorry for your loss. Panda was more than just a cute name. Through your posts about panda, nick and i learned what it means to truly care for a sheepie as a family member. We both feel that it is so appropriately described when you say, "panda you are the sun" because it has been so apparent how much panda meant to you and how much you loved your baby. We send our deepest condolences and many healing hugs your way. I remember when I lost my first dog; it really helped me to talk and write about all the memories we shared. |
Joahaeyo wrote: Still thinking about you ...love what Ron did at the top. Ditto that is a lovely tribute from Ron x |
| thanks ron...and everyone... my morning routine was horrible...brian, instead of taking pooh for a walk, walked himself instead and left a note saying 'i miss my friend'...i wanted her to run into the bathroom, knock into me and race back out for her breakfast..the floor is so empty without her bowls...the house is so quiet, so void.... how do i download a video? |
| Still thinking of you and Panda, Darcy. Every time I come into this thread, my eyes tear up. And what Ron did was wonderful. |
CamVal1 wrote: Still thinking of you and Panda, Darcy. Every time I come into this thread, my eyes tear up. And what Ron did was wonderful. Ditto |
| I here for you...we are all here for you. Panda was like my dog too, she was only a month or so older than Pirate, and I loved to read about them growing up together. I'm so sorry...... |
| Oh Darcy - I am just heartbroken. Sitting here at work with tears just streaming down my cheeks, eyes all puffy and red. Just isn't fair. I was so hoping she'd get better. Panda was a precious, beautiful girl who knew nothing but love from the day she came into your life. She was as blessed to have you as you were to have her. Go ahead and wail and cry. It helps. So sorry. |
| I have seen the video/photos on face book. Panda was so beautiful and so happy. The photos didnt make me sad...they are so beautiful...still thinking of you....hugs...xxxxx |
| Darcy, That was an AWESOME tribute to Panda. |
| Beautiful tribute for a beautiful sweet girl |
| I only just read this. I am so sorry that you had to say goodbye to Panda. It is always so hard to let them go, even when you know it is time and the only true kindness you can do. I know that Panda had a wonderful life with you, filled with love and security. It's been a year and a couple of weeks since we let Archie go. I can tell you that it does get less painful and after a while your heart is filled with wonderful memories instead of heart ache. I would be lying if I didn't say that I miss both Merlin and Archie so much that some days, the tears still flow. But more often, I remember the love and the fun and while I don't miss them less, it is more bearable and less painful. Many hugs to you. |
| Beautiful tribute to your girl. You couldn't have loved her anymore if you had tried. |
| Going thru your album this a.m. those are exactly the same pictures I would have selected (but you had a few more not in the album.) What a lovely tribute. susan |
| I thought the same thing Susan. One of my favorite Panda/Darcy pics was one that she used for her avatar when she first joined. The tribute was beautiful Darcy. |
| I was reading the posts today in the car, catching up after a trip to Colorado. I cried reading about Panda and Max being gone. I understand laying on the floor with the dog. I laid in the back of the van for the 40 mile trip with our Pooh Bear and laid on the floor of the vet's office next to him, too. You just want to absorb everything at that moment...their smell, their imagine to keep forever in your mind and keeping a bit of their soul in your heart. The loss is devasting and after 5 months the tears still flow. Everytime I was feeling sad about Pooh the song 'How Can I Help You Say Goodbye by Patty Loveless came on the radio. Then the tears would flow even more, but I heard it so often after we lost Pooh Bear. I was crying quietly behind my sunglasses as we were driving home. (my husband was driving!) Reading about the loss of Panda and Max, I naturally started feeling sad about Pooh and quess what..............yup that song came on the radio! The tears never stop, just like now. I made it through a little over a minute in your tribute. I am very sorry about your loss, my heart goes out to you. Keep your heart and eyes to open for signs from Panda because they will come. I have had a few from Pooh Bear. One I just realized from events this summer. I had read somewhere that butterflies are signs from angels. I haven't seen too many butterflies the past few years, but there was a black and white butterfly that came around everyday while we were sitting outside. I don't remember ever seeing that color around here. It would just circle and dance around where we were. I would just watch it...it didn't seem to be too afraid of us and it was always just one butterfly. Call me crazy, but I think it was Pooh or sent by him. |
Panda, you gorgeous little sheepie girl, I'm so sad to see you go over the Bridge. You were as sweet as you were beautiful. We all had such good times! Darcy and Brian, I know your hearts are broken. Tim and I send our thoughts and prayers.    |
| Darcy that is a lovely tribute to your beautiful Panda. Cindy |
| One more...the first time we met, in 2005. And the last time that adorable little Panda would be the same size as my enormous Bailey. Big hugs, Darcy. I can't even imagine how hard it must be.  |
| Panda had the greatest parents and so loved...I feel like I knew her and feel so bad for your pain....thank you for giving her the best life...wish all of god's animals could live such a special way while on earth...know we are feeling your pain and loss |
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| what a beautiful and touching tribute to your Panda. So sorry for your loss- Panda was one of the few sheepies I vividly remember reading about before signing up as a member on oes.org. |
| That was such a beautiful tribute to your sweet Panda. I know I only joined a few months ago and didn't have the privilege of sharing Panda's life (as so many others have been so touched and blessed), but that video was such a wonderful way to show the world what a special friend you had in your life. My 14 yo daughter and I sat and watched the video and smiled at so many special moments you captured. How precious those memories are and the millions more I am sure you hold special in your heart. to you and Brian, my heart truly goes out to you both. |
| What a beautiful video of a wonderful girl. |
| Thank you for sharing all of those beautiful pics of your baby.... It really was a beautiful tribute. |
| Brian and I went for a walk in our old neighborhood. Our panda route. Every bush she sniffed, every palm tree we hid behind, every feral cat that ran past brought sobbing tears to our eyes. I don't know what to do. We are hurting so much. I have Brian AND you. But Brian only has me. He's hurting the same but without the benefit of extra support. He won't read these posts. How long does it take to stop hurting? How long does it take to stop crying? My dog was not just a dog. Brian and I humanized her and made her our child The pain and sadness is unbearable. We are lost and incomplete. We want to run but have no where to go that she isn't there. God I've never known so much pain in my life. |
| Darcy, thinking of you and Brian and continuing to send out prayers...The pain will maybe not ever go away but will lessen. You are grieiving just like a human loss. Cry, scream, be depressed...its the grieving process...We are all here for you |
| Darcy, omg, I am SO sorry for your loss of your sweet Panda girl *hugs* |
| The pain is intense, I couldn't believe how much it hurt. I felt like my insides were ripped out and it was all empty inside. You just have to take things one day at a time. My co-workers weren't sure how to treat me since I was always crying. Unless you have one of these dogs, I don't think anyone will understand. They become our family. I still cry. I had Pooh's leash and collar hanging in the same spot for a couple of months and one day it fell down. (still not sure how that happened) Only then, could I bear to touch it. I took his collar and put it to my nose and smelled, but his smell was gone. I was so sad, I was hoping it would be there yet. I remember the night before we took him in, I just knelt down next to him (he couldn't get up by himself anymore) and just inhaled his smell trying to memorize it. My husband was lost without Pooh. He went everywhere with the dog. No one ever saw one without the other. We had decided not to get another dog because the loss of Pooh was devastating. It was so lonely at home. I had given away his things to the humane society, so that made me feel a little better, but it was still so empty at home. We have Angus now. He has filled a small hole, but has started a new area for himself in my heart. You will feel Panda around you. Be open to the signs. |
| Darcy the tribute to your blue eyed baby girl was just taking me back personally to everything Panda, I feel I've known her forever and her sparkling corn flower blue eyes won my heart years ago. What you are experiencing is "NORMAL", it does get a bit more bearable as time goes by, then the memories makes smiles as that is what they endow to us forever. With pandas baby, yes sniff it, hold it to your heart and cuddle it, her essence is on that and when you need that, it is there to comfort you. Earlier this year when we were packing up the house, my mom was helping me, I had a satchet containing "Kelseys" lock of hair and when I opened it I started crying, as it had her "smell" still on it even though a good 2 years since we said "Goodbye" sweetie. So when your ready pop pandas baby in a plastic satchell and when you need it, its there with pandas essence to help you through the rough times and to comfort you. We never really get over loosing our soul mates, best friends, babies but life goes on and we have to be strong and just remember, even though panda has crossed over, she will always be there in yours and brians hearts and memories forever,watching over you both, they leave us with that gift of never ending love and a presence for the rest of our lives. Give yourself time and brian too, to grieve, remember, feel all sorts of emotion, re-visit places you all went with panda, cry, everything, IT IS ALL NORMAL, after loosing your precious baby. I could not even answer the phone for 3 months after saying goodbye to my girl, my hubby had to do that after people heard I had to say goodbye to my princess too. 2 years down the track and there are still times, that something crops up and I think of her and have tears in my eyes. You never get over it, but it does get better, love to you and brian at this time. |
| Beautiful tribute to your beautiful girl. That pain is unbearable--cry your heart out--it does help. More hugs to you both -tell Brian we are thinking of him too. |
| Darcy, your video is beautiful and what struck me about it is how loved she was and what a great and happy life she had. That's about the most any of us can ask for. Only time can ease your pain. But it will ease. Hugs to you both. |
| darcy and brian, For if the dog be well remembered, if sometimes he leaps through your dreams actual as in life, eyes kindling, questing, asking, laughing, begging, it matters not at all where that dog sleeps at long and at last. On a hill where the wind is unrebuked and the trees are roaring, or beside a stream he knew in puppyhood, or somewhere in the flatness of a pasture land, where most exhilarating cattle graze. It is all one to the dog, and all one to you, and nothing is gained, and nothing lost -- if memory lives. But there is one best place to bury a dog. One place that is best of all. If you bury him in this spot, the secret of which you must already have, he will come to you when you call -- come to you over the grim, dim frontiers of death, and down the well-remembered path, and to your side again. And though you call a dozen living dogs to heel they should not growl at him, nor resent his coming, for he is yours and he belongs there. People may scoff at you, who see no lightest blade of grass bent by his footfall, who hear no whimper pitched too fine for mere audition, people who may never really have had a dog. Smile at them then, for you shall know something that is hidden from them, and which is well worth the knowing. The one best place to bury a good dog is in the heart of his master. by Ben Hur Lampman i know the people here all get this about their furchildren, i could never put it into words as ben has. |
| Darcy The pain you feel now is unmeasurable, and will stay with you for a long time. I know the support of friends helps because I have been there. I just wanted you to know I am thinking of you at this time of great sadness and heartbreak, Words cannot express the pain. Panda was indeed a wonderful sheepdog . Panda you "are" the sun. cindy |
| My heart is breaking for you. A loss of any of our babies is so hard. Just cry and cry until you can't any longer. That was numbing for me. Still, the least thing will bring it all to the surface again. We were ready for another sheepie at six months, and that helped to finish our intense pain. Charm is not Chloe, and could never replace her, but her loving sheepie ways brings a smile to our hearts. Take your time to grieve. Big hugs and peaceful thoughts coming your way. And I will hug Charm close and kiss her nose for Panda. |
| Your video tribute was incredibly beautiful! What a loved pup she was. I am so very, very sorry for your loss of sweet Panda. |
| Brian and Darcy~~ Your posts bring memories of the days following my Millie's passing. What intense emptiness, helplessness, lonliness...And I had friends who understood, but, like Brian, Dino had no one to really talk to except me...~~ would come home, sit on the couch, and begin to weep~all the while, he would say.."It was a dog..why am I crying about a dog?" And I would reply..."It was our MILLIE..not just a dog"...I don't think most men realize how much these sheepies get under their skin and into their heart. He seemed shocked at his emotions, as silly as that sounds. I knew what I would feel when Millie was gone. or, I thought I would know, but all the sadness I felt was almost more than I could handle. I took 2 days off of work after we sent her to the bridge..and when I got back to work, 2 coworkers came into my office and said...'ARE YOU OK ....NOW????" (like 2 days was enough to mourn for a dog). nondog people, just don't GET it..and you can't make them.. WE are here for you..and you tell us everything you need to..it will help to know that we care and we loved Panda too!! She touched so many lives, by you sharing your stories, and pictures, Personally, it made my days happier. Nothing better than waking up on a Monday morning and seeing that smiling face when I logged onto the forum. I wish I could tell you it will get better quick....but, it will take time...and one day, you will remember Panda, and smile, why????? Because at some point, you will realize how very lucky you were to have her in your lives, even for such a short time. Some people go through life never experiencing that special bond, that unconditional love..~~ But you KNOW..you both KNOW what a precious gift that is..and you will always have it!!!! |
| As I was getting ready for bed last night, it occurred to me where the deep stabbing pain came from. Having no children of my own, panda, allowed me to nurture her. I may not have raised a child but I raised her. I believe it IS a mothers loss that I feel. Brian and I were talking last night and we decided that our pain is the same yet different. He misses his friend and I miss my baby. Both equally painful. I have to clean the house today and I dread it. As Brian said last night, it feels like we are cleaning her away. Smells, dust, hair..... She vomited on the bed the other night and the smell is vile. I have washed it twice and ther is still a lingering stench. Brian asked me not to get rid of it yet. And I found myself laying on the bed smelling it and crying. I think if we still had a stool sample, I'd smell that too. |
Darcy wrote: As I was getting ready for bed last night, it occurred to me where the deep stabbing pain came from. Having no children of my own, panda, allowed me to nurture her. I may not have raised a child but I raised her. I believe it IS a mothers loss that I feel. Brian and I were talking last night and we decided that our pain is the same yet different. He misses his friend and I miss my baby. Both equally painful. I have to clean the house today and I dread it. As Brian said last night, it feels like we are cleaning her away. Smells, dust, hair..... She vomited on the bed the other night and the smell is vile. I have washed it twice and ther is still a lingering stench. Brian asked me not to get rid of it yet. And I found myself laying on the bed smelling it and crying. I think if we still had a stool sample, I'd smell that too. I know exactly what you mean. We don't have kids either and I feel very much like I am a mama to Mady. I would walk through fire for her, as I know you would have for Panda. That maternal instinct gets expressed through our love for our furkids. You lost your baby girl and that must just be a gut wrenching kind of pain. I do feel comforted by the other people on this forum who have come through the same kind of pain, so that gives me enormous hope that you too will come through this, as will I when it is my turn. It is the sad price that we pay for the incredible amount of love we get from our furry babies. Still, it is worth it. I have only to look at your pictures to know that, as horrible as this is, it was worth experiencing the pain to have lived the years of joy you had with your Panda girl. You will see her again-that kind of love is forever. |
| darcey it took me a few days to go through your pcs i gotta say the one with the cupcake on her nose took me over.. she is still making us lol!! .. i do get that she is your baby i took have never had kids but then again i do have kids just with some fur attached .. thinking of you today .. hey save the cleaning for another day |
| It is very hard. You never really get over it, I still miss Rebecca, and it's been almost a year now. Newman was the first sheepdog we lost, and I couldn't bear the emptiness of the house without him, and we got Frank only a couple of months later. I am in the same boat too, not having any children and since the sheepdogs are such clingers, it is so easy to fall into nurturing them. Coming home was the hardest, and just going through the motions of the routines, like what you are going through. I've been giving Frank extra big hugs for you Darcy, I really feel for you. |
| I'm so sorry...... My heart breaks every time one of us loses one of our beloved sheppies!! December 26th will be one year for me losing my first OES!! I miss her every day. Everyone handles loss differently but we opened our hearts to another sheepie and are just over the moon with our Bentley. He will be one on Dec. 22nd!! Need to start planning his party. Hang in there!! |
| Darcy I'm sorry I missed this post I've not been on the forum this past week but the number of pages to this post are a testimony to Panda's many friends. I am so sorry to hear of yours and Brian's loss. I am crying tears for your heartbreak. I dread the day I must say goodbye to Tiggy already and she's not been with me 4 years yet. I don't have children either and she is and will always be my baby girl. My sincerest condolences, thoughts and prayers are with you and Brian at this time. |
| I am so devastated to hear of Panda's passing. I loved seeing her lovely pink nose. All of your postings are just full of the love you had and will always have for her. I don't know if you remember when we lost Lola. I seriously thought I couldn't survive that pain. I had Maggie in my arms less than 48 hours after. It was the only way I could cope. It has been almost two years since we lost our baby. I can still cry if I think about it for too long. I just look into Maggies eyes, and my heart aches a little less. Take care and know that my thoughts are with you. |
LolasMama wrote: I am so devastated to hear of Panda's passing. I loved seeing her lovely pink nose. All of your postings are just full of the love you had and will always have for her. I don't know if you remember when we lost Lola. I seriously thought I couldn't survive that pain. I had Maggie in my arms less than 48 hours after. It was the only way I could cope. It has been almost two years since we lost our baby. I can still cry if I think about it for too long. I just look into Maggies eyes, and my heart aches a little less. Take care and know that my thoughts are with you. i was just wondering, are you the same lola's mom that walked her dog in OS california? Lola that carried a stuffed octopus? We vacation in OS and would walk panda every where...a few yrs ago, we bumped into someone with an OES, her name was Lola....she was just a puppy... i dont think there are too many Lola sheepdogs in SoCo.... |
Darcy wrote: LolasMama wrote: I am so devastated to hear of Panda's passing. I loved seeing her lovely pink nose. All of your postings are just full of the love you had and will always have for her. I don't know if you remember when we lost Lola. I seriously thought I couldn't survive that pain. I had Maggie in my arms less than 48 hours after. It was the only way I could cope. It has been almost two years since we lost our baby. I can still cry if I think about it for too long. I just look into Maggies eyes, and my heart aches a little less. Take care and know that my thoughts are with you. i was just wondering, are you the same lola's mom that walked her dog in OS california? Lola that carried a stuffed octopus? We vacation in OS and would walk panda every where...a few yrs ago, we bumped into someone with an OES, her name was Lola....she was just a puppy... i dont think there are too many Lola sheepdogs in SoCo.... No, sorry, that wasn't us. It would have been sweet if it was though. |
| I am thinking of you, your husband and your dear Panda. I am so sorry you lost your girl. I apologize for my late response to your loss, I have not been on this section for some time. I can relate to all of the different kinds of pain you are experiencing. Our loss (Cooper) in Sept was a horrible time to get through also. Hopefully you will get to a time or place where the hurt isn't as great as the day before. Love, loyalty and affection of a Sheepie are worth every minute, no matter how long or short we have them. Your memories hurt now, make you sad, (might even make you laugh) but treasure them always. |
| I am sorry you are going through so much pain. You have so much love to give dare I ask if you will have another pup? You can never replace Panda, but I found having Summer gave me something to do. I think non dog people think having a pet is a chore. We don't, every thing we do for my pets is done out of love.... |
| yes, we would like another dog...hoping for a little girl..new or rescue sometime in the spring or summer...we are just waiting to see what is meant to be.... |
| that is so good....one will come along you just wait and see...bet Panda is keeping a look out for you....When we lost Katy we were distraught. I contacted local rescue centres and didn't find anything. We were due to go away and then I found some pups near Birmingham, only about an hours drive away. We went and chose Summer (or Daisy as she was then) and said we would pick her up after our holiday. Next day the rescue person contacted me and said they had a 2 year old bitch wanted re homing I declined as I had fell for Summer. We picked Sum up and later that day was looking at her pedigree. I read her fathers name and something rang a bell I got out Katy's pedigree, and they both had the same father. How strange was that? the original breeder must have sold him to someone near Birmingham. I believe Katy had a paw in us finding Summer..xx |
| I haven't been on the Forum a whole lot lately and am truely sorry to hear of your loss of Panda. |
| Glad to hear you are considering a new furbabie in the future. Thought with your living arrangements you might give up on a lap blanket for Brian. |
| Sorry to hear about your loss Panda is so special and is loved dearly, Have fun in heaven with all the other doggies!!  |
| I understand what you are going through. When I lost Robin I was in a daze for weeks. He was our constant companion and friend. Finally after many years I can talk/write about him without crying. You asked how one survives this - I don't know. It hurts so badly for so long. You may be adopted by another OES, but you'll NEVER forget Panda. Good luck with your heart. |
| Oh Darcy, I am so sorry to hear of Panda's Passing. I haven't been on the boards lately, Your post made me cry and when you mentioned bring Panda Home...... I brought my Winston Home the same way and he is still in my heart. I have a special place for him in curio cabinet and I can visit him all the time, but I still miss him. It does get easier but it takes a long time. My prayers are with you. Joanne |
| I haven't been here in awhile, but I saw this post first. Darcy, I am so sorry for your loss of Panda. I have had to leave 2 sheepies at the bridge in the past and it is never easy. The pain will lessen, but you never forget. Take care. |
| It has been two months since my Panda went to heaven. I miss my baby girl so much. It has gotten better bu,t just now when I realized the date, I am crying. Oh panda. I love and miss you more than words or my tears will ever express. |
| Cindy |
| I can't even imagine and don't have the right words...but I am glad you have this place to share your sadness with people who understand. |
| Darcy - I have been inactive these past few months due to moving and just saw your post about Panda. I'm so sorry for your loss - it is so hard to lose our furry friends: their hearts just meld with ours. Panda was one of the first OES I "met" on this forum, back before I even joined, and she was a very special girl. Thanks for sharing her love here and our thoughts are with you. |
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