I feel really weird
The building isn't air conditioned, so it was 33 degrees C and with the humidex it was 44! We were all just glistening puddles by the end, and I could not get people to stop opening windows! It was a lot warmer outside than in, so why would you let that air come in? The answer...for the breeze. Sheesh. Does no one get that once that hot air breezes in it settles and raises the temperature further? How about turning on the fans instead? They KEEP air moving. Sigh. I digress. When the day ended I said goodbye to all the kids, and to staff, and took my last bin (of close to fifty which are now all in my dining room) and quietly walked out. I expected a big, emotional feeling but really it felt kinda...meh. Driving down the street I was flagged down by another teacher who was also leaving after her last day. We drove to Starbucks, had an iced coffee (nice change from the sweltering heat in our building) and discussed the fact that neither of us had felt bad at all about leaving. I loved the first twelve years in that building, but this past year was difficult. The philosophy in the building shifted, and was not congruent with my beliefs (and sadly, the beliefs of most of the teachers). I did my best to keep things running smoothly, try to affect some positive changes, and then finally to quietly support whatever I could while keeping myself out of trouble. Maybe that's why I didn't have that big tearful exit. So I'm starting in a new building next fall, in my new role as an administrator, and I'm really excited about that, but right now I belong nowhere, and it feels weird. I almost feel like I'm unemployed. It's very different from what I thought it would be. |
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| Good bye old, HELLO NEW! |
| Like Ron said! The last year feelings are the freshest, so I would say the less than stellar year has colored your feelings. Maybe now would be a good time to review stuff from the other 12 years and get back some of the more positive feelings, and use that momentum to shape your new plans for your new school.  |
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