I'm so blue today - long, sorry.
We've had some really good news at home, but I feel ambivolent about it. Tony was just offered a new job. It's a very good job, more money. I should be dancing on a table. Right now, he works next door to me. On days I have to go directly to my meetings after work, I know he is here to take care of the pups. His new job is about 50 miles away, so he can't do that anymore. He is very excited, I feel very selfish. We never see each other during the day, but it feels good to know he is so close. The dealership he is going to is very stable. It's great...why do I feel so crappy? My best friend, Nancie (in Florida) had to put her 16 1/2 year old dog to sleep yesterday. He had stroke over the week, which left his hind legs paralyzed. He was already mostly blind, and it really was his time. My heart is breaking for her. It's cold and rainy, which I'm sure has some impact on this delightful mood of mine. And...we had a manager's meeting yesterday about all the cuts we are going to have to make. I knew it was coming, and it is NOT as bad as I had antispicated. But convincing everyone it's GOOD, is not going to be easy. One fellow who has worked here for about 10 years will be laid off. He's in his mid 60s, so it will not be easy for him to get another job. Sigh..................... I just feel crappy. I want to rejoice about Tony's new job, and I do put on a happy face in front of him...I'm just not feeling it. Thanks for listening. I think tonight (after my meeting) it could be major martini night. |
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Deb, I understand you. We got bad news yesterday and it took me hours to settle down. I even had a very bad panic attack. 
I still have had some leftover feelings today. Does Tony really want this job? Is the 50 miles worth the more money? I am sorry about your freinds pet. It just was time. You just had many things to deal with in one day. HAVE A FEW DRINKS!!!! |
| I am sorry Deb. I hope tomorrow is a better day. |
Hoping each new day takes a bit of the blues away.  |
| so sorry you feel like this. hope everything sorts out soon. you will hurt for your friend, we all hurt every time someone on here loses a dog....hugs to you.....bit of tlc I think. |
| Lots of decisions, never easy.
I see you have the miserable rain now too. It was here earlier, complete with thunder. We are in the "eye" now - enjoying the sun......until the snow on the backside hits us this evening!  |
| I'm sorry your having a blue day |
| i know the feeling deb...hang in there...just remember, someone always has it worse than you...AND youre surround by people who adore you...
xo. |
| yes been in the blues for a while so i do understand hang in there , this forum does help just go to the pics and that eill cheer u up |
| Put on your oes.org hat, strike a strange pose in it and post it!
OK, it might not help you feel better, but It'll help us! 
Feel better kiddo. |
| Wow, can I relate to you right now!! I understand completely about others being happy and you feeling selfish. I will say, it is normal. How so? Because Tony is a part of your life as you are his, and if he's 50 miles away that isn't selfish of you to feel like that.......Perhaps it's the comfort of knowing you may not like change. You even said you both have a whole regime and life is content in that aspect.
As for your friends pet (companion), I'm going through that right now and boy I wish her well. It's been two weeks since my 18 year old kitty was laid to rest, and I have bouts of uncontrolable sobbing. I'm sure you told your girlfriend that she should take comfort in knowing her baby isn't suffering anymore..... And sometimes it doesn't hurt to have a lil' martini action!! Cheer up, Deb! You WILL get through the temporary blues.... |
Hope you feel better tomorrow, Deb. Sometimes, it just doesn't seem to matter what's going on around you, good or bad, you just feel disconnected. Hope you can plug in to the good feelings and perk up tomorrow. If not, there's always martinis.  |
Does it help at all to know I love you 
( and that I had a few drinks for you early )
Anyway, besides that....I hope everything works out ! It will!  |
| Awww I'm so sorry you are feeling crappy. I think you will adjust quickly and things will settle down at work soon. So sorry about your friend.
I think you're great. Count your blessings and have a drink for me |
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How are you feeling today Deb? Did Ron's April Fools joke perk you up at all? I hope today is a better day with sunshine, flowers and baloons.  |
| Changes in the norm always make me feel out of sorts, at least temporarily. Hopefully you feel better today! |
Thanks everyone. You do make a girl feel loved  I think it is all the changes going on. Sometimes its overwhelming. In addition to the things I wrote about yesterday, this weekend I have the undesirable task of letting my stepmom know, it's time for her to move to assisted living. I've been doing my "homework" to prepare, and its a bummer.I'm sure in a few days, all will be right with the world. Huggles and kisses back to all of you! (Please note...I'm "green" again.) |
| Oh Deborah. All I can do is send you hugs and kisses and let you know we're thinking of you. |
| Deb you're entitled to feel bummed out!!
But I hope you're feeling lots better. |
| Just catching up on here Deb. Sorry to hear you are Blue...
You have lots going on- and it is ok to feel depressed about the changes. Too often, we think that everything good has to be met with whoops and hollers of cheer. But, like in your case, you should be allowed to "mourn" the changes too. We always try to lum things together-- and that causes guilt. Sure - a new job and stabilty is great, and you are happy for that and the comforts it will provide. However, your other points are valid. Does that make sense? Regardless, you are an amazing gal, and I am sure things will be looking up very soon, as soon as the heart grasps what your mind knows.  |
Abuckie wrote: Just catching up on here Deb. Sorry to hear you are Blue...
You have lots going on- and it is ok to feel depressed about the changes. Too often, we think that everything good has to be met with whoops and hollers of cheer. But, like in your case, you should be allowed to "mourn" the changes too. Lori, thanks for these words. I'm going through some positive changes and they are causing me anxiety and insomnia! Your post has already helped me. |
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Hope the sun comes out for you soon XXX |
Paula O. wrote: Abuckie wrote: Just catching up on here Deb. Sorry to hear you are Blue... You have lots going on- and it is ok to feel depressed about the changes. Too often, we think that everything good has to be met with whoops and hollers of cheer. But, like in your case, you should be allowed to "mourn" the changes too. Lori, thanks for these words. I'm going through some positive changes and they are causing me anxiety and insomnia! Your post has already helped me. Paula, I'm starting to think all change, good or bad, sucks. |
| What about pocket change? |
Ron wrote: What about pocket change?
Who has any of that anymore, lol... |
Paula O. wrote: Abuckie wrote: Just catching up on here Deb. Sorry to hear you are Blue... You have lots going on- and it is ok to feel depressed about the changes. Too often, we think that everything good has to be met with whoops and hollers of cheer. But, like in your case, you should be allowed to "mourn" the changes too. Lori, thanks for these words. I'm going through some positive changes and they are causing me anxiety and insomnia! Your post has already helped me. I'm happy to hear you are working through the "good times". It took me a long time to realize that we are entitled to our true feelings--- and sometimes, while postive changes work out in the long run, they are STILL change. Hallmark has a sappy card for everything, and society likes us to always be "grateful". Being nervous and and blue about change does not negate being thankful. It's all about coming to terms with your world changing -- good or bad. |
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